Cobwebs

Sometimes it is very weird. Just when I thought that things have come to end one tiny spark ignites the flame. *Puff* There it is again. But then I realised I have changed in the process. I am proud to say that I have matured and am more aware of the inner emotions and what views that others hold. I can handle my happiness better. Not being overtly optimisitc or pessimistic. Just nice.

I was chatting with an online friend from Ireland. He said I made him extremely happy because I sent him a book for Christmas. It was exactly the same book he wanted to buy. Actually, I also sent a book to a girlfriend in LA for her birthday and it ended up to be something she wanted to read too. Interesting!

In terms of work it has not been too smooth lately. I faced two rejections from the film council in London and Rotterdam. But then as Confucius once said, "Our greatest Glory is not in never failing but in the Rising everytime we fall." I am not upset though I admit I am a little disappointed. However it is not an emotion I can't tackle. The night is still young and the road before me is open ended. I have many chances to try something else. The time is not right yet. That's all.

I asked myself, "How do I avoid unpleasant situations?" I thought for a very long time, which means for years! Now I finally get the answer. I read it a zillion times in books and spoken about it with friends. The answer is, "I can't avoid unpleasant situations. I can only change my attitude."

GumboLam is a priceless treasure in my life. No one has ever touched me in the special ways she does. I have much respect, admiration and love for this woman. She is every bit I wish I can be but I know I will never. No matter what happens in the future, you will always remain special in my heart. Because you are you. The simple woman you. I love you. *muaks*

EDIT: We never know how long is forever...