Hole with a view

what we see and know now, is only a dot of infinity.

The problem is we think we know everything. Thinking we are smart is really dangerous. The potential of mind shutting is actualized. After that the talk becomes face value. The conversations run around trivial and dramatized notions. We stretch the surface without going deeper and exploring other perceptions. The rest of the doors are sealed and shut because we think such doors don't exist. There is only one door way.

It is a struggle to break free from walking in and out one door way. This only brings to mind rejection and failing to fit in. The question to ask is compliance that important? Following orders have become our nature and we do it without blinking.

Shouldn't following our heart be something we do without blinking? It is not even a conscious act but an automated field of actions. Because in this one act plants the seed of past, present and future. It is known with wisdom and not just knowledge.

Look further, Contemplate deeper

Inwardly be free of all hopes and desires, but outwardly do what needs to be done. Without hopes in your heart, live as if you were full of hopes. Live with your heart now cool and now warm, just like everyone else. Inwardly give up the idea "I am the doer," yet outwardly engage in all activities. This is how to live in the world, completely free from the least trace of ego.

-Maharamayana

HURRICANE KATRINA SURVIVORS and VICTIMS

While I was lamenting how I can't have what I want and why certain things have worked against a pre-planned timetable, I was a complete idiot. It is indeed true and I could have done my prayers a million times, I won't understand the meaning of impermanence until it collides with the ignorance on my part. Everything changes and nothing really lasts forever. Unfortunately, each time something I want dissipates from my vision, there is anger. In the midst of this anger, I failed to see the actual fruits of my labour because I was blinded by wrath and the feeling of disappointment. If only there was more patience, I could have spotted the light.

It puts me to shame to be extremely short sighted and for not being able to understand and receive the universal language of love. Here we have a catastrophic disaster in New Orleans, all beyond anyone's control which led to multitudes of death and property damage. The amount of looting, rapes, fights and fires that broke out in the wake of devastation really puts a big question to compassion and kindness. What happened to mankind? Unity seems to have diminished and have been digested by the selfishness of the moments.

The endorsement of "I am this and I am that" definitely helped to harden the heart. Every man for himself and every woman for herself. In this age of self-preservation, is there any more room for unconditional love? Can I even get near the shadow of love. I am not talking about love for pleasure, ownership and control. But I am talking about love that is beyond the comprehension of words. Infinite love.

Sincere wishes to New Orleans. May you soon find and embrace the light.

the core

Why do you scream? Why do you jump? Why do you do the things you do?
What motivates everything? What is the intention behind my writing this?

I really don't know. Because the deeper I dwell, the more it becomes unclear. I don't find definitions working any longer.

Is it my mind or yours when you pretend that you don't care. It is such a joke because people repress themselves so much. For what? To be cool seems to be the common answer. It annoys me to no end when people don't get it that an honest answer or action comes from within and not from what the society says.
When someone doesn't follow the crowd, s/he believes that s/he must fight agaisnt this and that. In other words, be rude and fight for what they believe they want - I am ORGINAL. These group of people are just so wrong and ignorant. Because what they are doing is endorsing ruthlessness and hatred in society. The society functions in a battle-style. A vs B, left vs right and so on. On the other hand, merely following instructions leaves one in a mechanical trance.

However looking at this whole mess which the world is in, nothing seems to be a solution so long as it is merely addressing things on a superficial level. The world does not need another religion, another nuclear weapon, another exotic island, another luxurious car and another assassination.

All these shit I go through with friends or whatever they call themselves only prove one point. No one is sincere. You scratch my back and I scratch yours is the name of the game. But I don't buy it. Not any longer. I am tired.

What is happening to my mind now?