Friday, January 07, 2005
The Hero's Journey
小蝶 - 我曾经和雅麗有个约会. 只有一次, 但是我已经满足.
It is said that the roles certain people play in life are destined to inspire the millions out there. Such is one played by Alice Lau Ngah Lai in "I Have A Date With Spring." From the stage play to the movie and to the musical, Alice's nexus with the character "Yiu Siu Tip" blossomed for 12 years. Although for the other leading female characters, different actresses have been selected to portray them, there can be only one Siu Tip; non other than Alice herself.
Perhaps Alice was born to touch the viewers with her genuine acting. And after a while it is very difficult to accept that Siu Tip is a creation in art. It is as though as Alice gave so much of energy and became the character. The warmth, righteousness, honesty and determination of Siu Tip are reflective of the person in reality.
Why do we love Siu Tip? I think, it is because she is the hero in our dreams and fantasies. From a third grade cabaret singer and through trials and turbulence she rose to the top. But she did it with so much of intergrity and humanity that we applause her success with approval. Her loyalty towards Kah Hoe; the musician boyfriend whose first love was inevitably music, after 25 years she awaits him. She is the hero we hope we can emulate in our devious and fluctuating society.
Siu Tip's journey of happiness, tears, pains and victory is the single journey that we all travel. But perhaps some may lack the qualities and strength she possesses. Some may derail and some may necessarily succeed.
Whatever the outcome, we all have a date with spring. Just like Siu Tip when the time comes we will find spring flourishing in winter.
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Tomorrow is no better than Today...
...and Yesterday was not a terrible experience. Chances are I would get laughed at if I say that the beggar is not poorer than the richman. Maybe you'd think that I am looney but imagine that if all the beggars unite and overthrow the government we will have a reversed situation. I dare you to venture into this dimension of abyss. Where everything is filthy, smelly, unkempt and stench of human urine replaces the sprinkles of branded perfumes.
This is indeed a nightmare but will soon be a norm once we adapt to it. The early upheavals will subside when obedience takes over. It may take months, years, decades and perhaps even centuries.
Of course this is taking things to the extreme or you might say I am so sick that I ought to be kept in prison. But fear not. I am as sane as the guy who eats fast food everyday. But then again what happens in our lives are not entirely within our control.
The Tsunami tragedy will force some changes in the way we view the world and hopefully begin to reshape our experiences of being alive. For those who lived by the sea they thought they knew the sea but were dead wrong. For those who were certain that their habitat was earthquake-free - but what do you know? Never say never again.
What do all these mean? I personally believe that these are signs of our arrogance and ignorance. Look at our lifestyle. We drift along in the pretext that we are above the universe and nature. We can do anything and everything we want to improve our life in the future. We desire a promotion, a new car, a big house, to be a millionaire and to hop onto one Progress or another. Work for the future, live for tomorrow because there is where the better days would be. My question is: when is Tomorrow? The next sunrise, the next year, when you turned 60? But what about Today? Now? This very moment?
I can hear some faint screams pushing out "I don't like today. I am unhappy. I don't have money. I have not purchased my house yet. I am still young and inexperieneced so I am constantly bullied."
This is indeed a nightmare but will soon be a norm once we adapt to it. The early upheavals will subside when obedience takes over. It may take months, years, decades and perhaps even centuries.
Of course this is taking things to the extreme or you might say I am so sick that I ought to be kept in prison. But fear not. I am as sane as the guy who eats fast food everyday. But then again what happens in our lives are not entirely within our control.
The Tsunami tragedy will force some changes in the way we view the world and hopefully begin to reshape our experiences of being alive. For those who lived by the sea they thought they knew the sea but were dead wrong. For those who were certain that their habitat was earthquake-free - but what do you know? Never say never again.
What do all these mean? I personally believe that these are signs of our arrogance and ignorance. Look at our lifestyle. We drift along in the pretext that we are above the universe and nature. We can do anything and everything we want to improve our life in the future. We desire a promotion, a new car, a big house, to be a millionaire and to hop onto one Progress or another. Work for the future, live for tomorrow because there is where the better days would be. My question is: when is Tomorrow? The next sunrise, the next year, when you turned 60? But what about Today? Now? This very moment?
I can hear some faint screams pushing out "I don't like today. I am unhappy. I don't have money. I have not purchased my house yet. I am still young and inexperieneced so I am constantly bullied."
But as far as the Theory of Time goes, there won't be tomorrow without today. How can we expect Tomorrow to be completely blissful suddenly when today we believe that we are soaking in shit? It is as though as "puff" a miracle happens and we are pulled to safety from above. Looking at how we develop there won't be a "better tomorrow" because we can never stop complaining that today sucks. Remember that today is the tomorrow of yesterday.
Maybe we should appreciate what we have now. Think that's all you need. You don't have to own 5 houses and employ 10 maids.
[Hei you! You are teaching us to be lazy!]
Excuse me! But I am not telling you to be unproductive. I am merely saying that you should know when to stop. Enough is enough. I am not saying don't participate but I am advocating that each choice you make should come from you and not what the society orders. What you do is not a compliance with social duties. You need to have the prudence to make wise decisions.
[What are you talking about? I need food to survive.]
The problem is that we don't really know what we want. So we imitate. We take advantage of the misfortune of others. U.N fears that gangs may traffic young Tsunami orphans to commit crimes. This is what I mean by following the hierachy of money rules it all. We are not listening to ourselves but to what others dictate. External pressure of power, money and sex overrule the inner voice.
[Well, I drive my Mercedes - you chat with your inner voice.]
God gives me the serenity to accept things I cannot change
The courage to change things I can; and
the WISDOM to tell them apart.
I wish I could...
I love you but I can't say
Because respect I must pay
To friends who don't understand
Why I love you I just can't pretend.
Seeds grow in a bark
They pop out in the dark
Secretly my feelings grow
Longer than the moon's shadow.
I wish I could scream out loud
Share with the world I am proud
But who can comprehend
It's a sour battle in the end.
Fate like the fire burns
It's something I can't discern
Why I love another this way
How did I let my heart go astray.
Maybe I loved too much
I refused to free my clutch
Finally I am burnt out
From the love I could do without.
Love is a funny companion
You tear when you peel onions
But love will make you cry
Even when your eyes are dry.
Love is a sentimental buddy
Makes you weep when you are happy
Tickles like morning dew
Trickles like the sunset view.
I love you for unspoken reasons
It lights my soul from the beacon
I am sorry for the way I am
I have changed I am to blame.
But until then I stay in silence
Drown in the world of hindrance
Only my little heart knows
How much I love you.
Note: This poem is written by me about my little friend who is only 16. Believe it or not she started going out with her current boyfriend at the age of 13. (What was I doing when I was 13? Gee...) She told me that she fell in love with a senior from her school who is dating her classmate's sister. I told her it could be a crush. But whether it is a crush or not, I think innocent puppy love is always the sweetest in one's memories. As we grow older a love relationship becomes contaminated by material demands and moral obligations. I tried to write this in the most "teenager" way possible. Have I lost it or simply too old fashion?
Because respect I must pay
To friends who don't understand
Why I love you I just can't pretend.
Seeds grow in a bark
They pop out in the dark
Secretly my feelings grow
Longer than the moon's shadow.
I wish I could scream out loud
Share with the world I am proud
But who can comprehend
It's a sour battle in the end.
Fate like the fire burns
It's something I can't discern
Why I love another this way
How did I let my heart go astray.
Maybe I loved too much
I refused to free my clutch
Finally I am burnt out
From the love I could do without.
Love is a funny companion
You tear when you peel onions
But love will make you cry
Even when your eyes are dry.
Love is a sentimental buddy
Makes you weep when you are happy
Tickles like morning dew
Trickles like the sunset view.
I love you for unspoken reasons
It lights my soul from the beacon
I am sorry for the way I am
I have changed I am to blame.
But until then I stay in silence
Drown in the world of hindrance
Only my little heart knows
How much I love you.
Note: This poem is written by me about my little friend who is only 16. Believe it or not she started going out with her current boyfriend at the age of 13. (What was I doing when I was 13? Gee...) She told me that she fell in love with a senior from her school who is dating her classmate's sister. I told her it could be a crush. But whether it is a crush or not, I think innocent puppy love is always the sweetest in one's memories. As we grow older a love relationship becomes contaminated by material demands and moral obligations. I tried to write this in the most "teenager" way possible. Have I lost it or simply too old fashion?
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Blue is not Red.
Snow in satin white
Purified my ignorance
I see beyond colors
I feel beyond passion.
But snow stays peacefully
No words must be said
For Dukkha will form
and kill the hanged man.
A leap I have taken
Racked the terms of life
But nothing here is fixed
And a spin it shall be.
Purified my ignorance
I see beyond colors
I feel beyond passion.
But snow stays peacefully
No words must be said
For Dukkha will form
and kill the hanged man.
A leap I have taken
Racked the terms of life
But nothing here is fixed
And a spin it shall be.
Summer Songs
The Lido Jubilee Christmas Special 2004 (Lai Fah Wong Goong) showcases some of the best vocalists in Hong Kong. I truly enjoyed watching the performance in Genting. But what drove me to tears and to screams of laughters were the songs. I call them Summer songs because they were warm, tender and reminiscent of my late Mother. These were the songs that she used to sing to me as a child. I came home and tried to locate the book where she wrote down the transliteration of the songs from Chinese to English. To my dismay it was no where to be seen. I wonder if it has been boxed and kept in the basement.
Even if I can't find the book ever again, each time I hear the melody of the songs it will be Summer time.
Monday, January 03, 2005
Happy 2005
This is my first post for year 2005. I procrastinated because I have too many things to write. I was not sure as to how I should write and if it would be misunderstood.
I am in a very confused state now. So much has happened lately that I fear my limited experience can't handle. Perhaps I won't be able to grow with the events that affect me directly.
For once I feel I have liberated myself from my obsession but I hope I won't transfer it to a new attraction. Once bitten twice shy. I should learn from the past. If I learn to shut up I think I will be able to balance out the situation. Be less suspicious and keep an astute mind. I don't owe anyone an explanation.
In the homefront, things are messy. I don't want to elaborate on it because I seriously do not know where to start. Suffice to say I am disappointed and hurt. But with time I will be able to battle out a fair judgement mentally; because I always like to make peace.
My career path is on a hault. I am making drastic changes.
Happy New Year! I wish you all a meaninful and healthy 2005. May all your dreams come true.
Sincerely,
肥妹仔 Wendy
I am in a very confused state now. So much has happened lately that I fear my limited experience can't handle. Perhaps I won't be able to grow with the events that affect me directly.
For once I feel I have liberated myself from my obsession but I hope I won't transfer it to a new attraction. Once bitten twice shy. I should learn from the past. If I learn to shut up I think I will be able to balance out the situation. Be less suspicious and keep an astute mind. I don't owe anyone an explanation.
In the homefront, things are messy. I don't want to elaborate on it because I seriously do not know where to start. Suffice to say I am disappointed and hurt. But with time I will be able to battle out a fair judgement mentally; because I always like to make peace.
My career path is on a hault. I am making drastic changes.
Happy New Year! I wish you all a meaninful and healthy 2005. May all your dreams come true.
Sincerely,
肥妹仔 Wendy
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