Circle

It is difficult to see what's beyond the Circle that encloses our visions. I have finally come to accept that I am not free of an ego yet. The road is long, unexpected and filled with demons and monsters. To get rid of an ego is fearful because it is diffcult to know and witness what's there when the ego is gone.

The comfort zone I am in; sometimes it is difficult to let go. The past is forever haunting. It is easy to slip into the wonders and disappointments of what happened before. At least I am certain but with the future it is always a blur hope.

However if I don't move on and change, I will rot in the claws of yesterday. Everything is moving. Time, the world, the sun, the moon, the stars, the galaxy and the universe. The centre is everywhere and I am the centre when things are on a constant shift. When I hold my centre or when I finally find it after death and rebirth, meeting and conquering the Devil, passing through the phase of darkness where light is born; I am there.

Until then I am still running around in Circles.

Ciao!

Enrichment 1

Reflections of Angkor

I am back. I feel tired, foreign and enriched. Tired because the sites, which I visited in Siem Reap were mounted on high grounds. If not before I could reach the core I had to walk for miles. Since these maginificient arcitectures were built nearly 1000 years ago, one would expect that the flooring were not smooth marble and cement. The grounds were rough stones with some parts almost unearthed. All these factors contributed to my walking and climbing difficult. To tip the scale, I had to carry a bottle of water and two cameras in my knapsack. Did I mention that it was scorching hot for most of the days? It rained intermittently for the first two days but the oven like heat took over for the rest of the week. As a result of which I developed a rather obvious tan, which I hope will disappear over time.

Despite all the physical toughness, the trip was invigorating. It's a total change of environment, culture and lifestyle. For starters I never knew that the skies were endlessly wide. Being a pure city dweller; skyscrappers blocked the openness of heaven. Siew Reap is a under developed town but for the ruins and historical sites that attracted teams of tourists world wide. The borderless green padi fields and grains expanded the horizon.

The entire visit has been totally enriching because it literally showed and proved to me that there was a civilsation 1000 years ago. That this universe is far reaching and what lies beyond is the answer to what is life.