Move on

Sometimes it is so heavy, the steps I take do not lead anywhere. The burden I carry soil my shoulders with uncountable tear drops. I want to give up and end everything there and then. But sometimes I dream and in that dream I see a laughing child. He holds a torch of life, a flower of breath and a seed of love. This child walks towards a direction that leads everywhere. In everywhere there is the child. How can this be? It is impossible. It is only a dream. When I awoke, I feel heat in the body, air in the lungs flowing through the nostrils and the universe lifting the sky above me.

Sound

One day Sariputta was confronted by a Brahmin who abused him verbally. When his words did not affect Sariputta, the Brahmin became even more furious. "Didn't you hear what I have just said?" shouted the angry Brahmin. " Do you have nothing to say to all my insults?"

Sariputta smiled gently and replied, " Well, my friend, I do hear you loud and clear. But since I know that you have nothing useful to say, I hear only sound vibrations, and I do not listen to the words, so I am not affected by their meaning."

Maya

Emotionally one is fragile. Physically one is vulnerable. Spiritually one is uncertain. Psychologically one is conditoned. Socially one is deceived. Where else can one go for solace?

Inside the heart, where the mind is not overpowering and not shadowed by feeble feelings of temporary love. How long can one be lured by the carrot before our face? It has become habitual to replace a rotten carrot with a fresh juicy apple. The most interesting part is that we voluntarily place the bait in front of us and we stupidly chase after it. Does it give out a sense of satisfaction when we finally catch the runaway carrot and chew on it or when we are sick and tired of carrots we grab an apple from down the road?

No more baits. Just be simple and present. We don't sincerely love anyone until we stop chasing after things to keep ourselves happy. Wishing for yourself to be happy is the greatest sin you can commit. Because very often, you justify your happiness with "as long as I don't hurt anyone. I am using my time, my effort and my money." How crude, selfish and inconsiderate you can be. Ultimately, you only think about yourself and no one else. To start from this premise, it is already wrong.

Your ego is so big that you believe that nothing is as important as yourself and the imaginary world you live in. You think that certain people you like are there to keep you entertained and happy. Again the flaw is, do you genuinely like or love or adore this person? Seriously, I would like to think otherwise. Forgive my bluntness but you only love yourself. You need the so-called person you love to respond to you positively and endorse everything you do. This gives you a sense of security and identity. Basically, it is the very crux of existence. You can jump at me but deep down, you know the truth.

If there is anything I see and do, I want me to die and what is to emerge from Maya (illusions).