from my heart

You don't know how HAPPY I am when I received your message. Words cannot express my deepest gratitude. Thank you for giving me this chance. I will truly treasure it. (If you do visit, I am sure you can sense that I am referring to you! *muaks*)

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Nothing is perfect; yet we all strive for everything to be flawless. And we wonder why this world is in chaos.

autumn birth

We all need someone special in our life. It is the same for me and I won't deny it. There are things which I did that would seem silly, outrageous and even selfish not to anyone else but to me. However there is no point in judging facts because once I do I am in conflict and it is wasting energy. I have desires for if I don't I am as good as dead. But letting desires run wild is equally as good as dead. The issue is not about learning how to control because control means repression. A repressed person is angry as he is forever in conflict. It is about acceptance, awareness and paying attention. When I was young I used to say, "I will never let the person I love to destroy me." I didn't understand the significance of such statements. Although I said them to show that I am mature, capable and inevitably it is a sign of arrogance. After nearly 15 years I will rephrase the statement to, "I will not destroy a person because of love."

Good night.

watching

I talked to the moon and the stars tonight. They greeted me with blinking smiles and I rejoiced in their presence.