Better than Better

There are many things that are not worth the angst, hatred and envy. There are many things not worth doing. My questions are if we don't do something full heartedly then where is our goal, our passion and dreams? What is a man without his dreams?

To begin with anger, hatred and jealousy are negative emotions. I reckon things are worthwhile if our intentions are good. There is no need to dislike anyone to the extent of creating malice. Maybe there is no need to even dislike. The Dalai Lama once said that when he woke up one morning he saw the watch he was wearing and he absolutely adored it. And the next day when he woke up he didn't like the watch. The watch didn't change. It was still the same. But the Mind did. The emotions did. The environment did. So before we react or say anything the usage of a filter is never a waste.

Patience to many people equals to giving in. Surrendering to the stronger and admitting that one is weaker. Someone who can't find the root of goodness in others doesn't have the compassion to be considerate - someone who thinks that "I am right" is so wrong.

Evil is always quick, cunning and more attractive. It does not promote patience which is pessimistic. It agitates and conjures such force that rumbles your clarity. Anger like lava consumes and destroys all it touches. We can't avoid evil. There is no running away. We can only change our attitude.

Once the internal balance is found patience is a force that excavates confusion and then realises, why need to be angry? Why hate? Why desire? What has been wronged but the ultimate ego?

After years of reading and experiencing the Ego, I am beginning to make friends with it. For I sincerely believe that we all need our egos to survive. It is the tiny bit of evil needed to prompt the goodness in us. The "yang" which nurtures the "ying". A friend that I will not suppress but to give her love, patience and care. Deep understanding is required for this lifelong relationship.

I love you, Wendy Loh Lai Si.