Three Leaves

"If you meet buddha on the road kill him" - it means do not follow him, make your own way...find the right path for you...if you are following others, you aren't true to yourself...kill the current idea of the buddha...that he was this christ like figure that must be a deity...he never wanted to be revered or remembered that way...

the two best allegories or symbolisms for buddhism are..."do not confuse the finger pointing to the moon with the moon"...and two..."buddhism is like an island in the middle of a lake..it will not tell you what you will find on the island...it will tell you to go find out for yourself.

typing out the words is easier than actually doing what the words are formed to convey...how to find a path and where to begin...is there a beginning...should i give up my entire possession to find this path.

if you read books on buddhism it appears that buddha did prescribe a method for willing folks...but as you read and absorb what he teaches you end-up admiring him and turned him into a divine protector of your life.

this mistake is very simple to make...because the buddha is someone sacred...an enlightened human being one tends to elavate his status and worshipping inevitably starts.

maybe it is human nature to want to idolise or make something or someone else more superior...to be alone means one does not exist...and this is a general presumption that one makes of themselves and others...for example there must be someone i love / admire...does the name sally yeh ring a bell...i am sarcastic and it may hit others as well but it is aimed at me...please don't think it is personal.

it need not be sally yeh...even religion can be an object of admiration turning out fanatics and murderers...it works on similar principles but the outcome is different...idolising sally yeh is more of an escape route taken by fans to get away from unpleasantness...i won't deny that sally makes me feel good and it does make me feel special and this is what fans look for...a hero they can relate to... one which completes their wildest dreams and imaginations...denying that sally-loving is not something that makes a fan feel nice is a blatant lie...might as well own up to it...cut the bullocks on only wanting to keep sally happy etc...another denial.

how did we get here...anyway...sally yeh is worshipping in a mildest form...as in there isn't any sally yeh temple around yet...no don't think i am saying it is wrong to love sally...i don't mean it this way...it has to happened because the events have turned out this way a fan has to go through the process...it is not a matter of it being fair or not but living the experience and letting it go.

i can go on for ages about attachment...but there is one thing i'd like to make known here...attachment is part of the noble truths...buddha said desires and thirst cause sufferring...and this in turn brings about a karmic reaction...but desires are also brought about by karma...and if you don't get it by now we are talking about a cycle...there is no beginning and ending...you can't find a spot and declare it as a starting point...to end this suffering is not by denying and finding excuses but to actually understand it...truly understanding it...so that another condition would not arise to bring about another attachment...but please remember that it is a karmic reaction...one must still bear the consequences even after understanding and seeing the truth...one can't escape from it but one is then ready to accept it and it ends completely...no more conditions arising.

finished.