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Does the word romance neccesarily mean that it would be a soulmate relationship with a man? It is something I shall find out and I am very much looking forward to it.

I was reading JC's book yesterday and the pertinent question he asked was what is the symbol of an unforgettable event in one's life? Why do certain things happen the way they do that they bring immense sorrows? If one fails to crack the pain and live through it, the diamond at the end of the tunnel will not be in reach. Without sufferings there will be no resurrection. It is not merely as simple as no pain, no gain. There is nothing to gain physically as in there really is a touchable diamond at the end of the tunnel. What it should refer to is a transformation of the mind, which is a realisation that the moment is the same as the eternal. The victorious defeat of a mental battle means we have unshelled the old self, giving birth to a new self. The old has to die for the new to be born. It is a fact of life. To hold on to the psychological past deters not only a fundamental growth but it creates a very boring life.

As I stop reasoning why a certain someone can be utterly important, the obsession stops too. I guess I dare say that I don't quite know this person whom I love unconditionally. What I know is merely third best, which is the worse. It is merely a projection of a self-painted image. It is a result of an unfair magnification of the qualites I like; those that make me feel so good. Should I stop pretending to be perfect and to have unblemished knowledge of this person, I will then truly begin to know myself.

Only then do I see.