Monday, February 27, 2006

crooked routes

A friend who visits this blog constantly wrote me an email fearing that I would not want to answer him in person. It is nothing severe but the question he asked did ring a few bells. Firstly he wondered why isn't this blog like a "regular online diary thingy". The next question, "Are those spiritual stuff that interesting?"

I guess I will reply you here; if you don't mind.

To begin with I do have a vague idea as to what would amount to a "regular online diary thingy". Can I just say that it isn't my style to write down minute details of what happened to me. I am not too event-oriented, if you get what I mean. What attracts me is the meaning behind each event and how they shape my mental state. So yes, the writings here are about the psychological and emotional reactions to a physical event. But aren't these kind of reactions "regular" as well?

Spiritual stuff? What stuff? No, I am not saying that you are using a word that disdains the spiritual realm of things. Is there anything solid to be interested in and should I continue to elaborate further, I would be caught in a paradox. In short, if I try to verbalise and solidify spirituality I am obssessed with a making myself better and that is the very thing that spirituality speaks against. To give you an exampale, a person who chases after wealth ruthlessly realises that money can't buy him happiness and satisfaction. Ah! He sees the "light" he thinks. So he decides to become spiritual and chases after enlightenment, illumination, unification and whatnot. See the point?

Thanks for the email.