contemplation

It is time again for another soul-search.
A little bit more of honesty would help tremendously.

What I refuse to face is forcing its way out.
The sky, yes I forgot how the sky feels.
The earth is wet and the soil is soft beneath my feet.
What's inside the heart has hardened.
What's around is losing its perspective.
I am drowning in fear, anger, jealousy and hatred.
Nothing is making sense because they never did.
Why am I here?
Stuck - in a self-made hole of desperation.
The answer seems simple enough.
I choose to be.
Indecisiveness would have been a delight but it didn't play its part well this time.
At least not when I needed it too.
Need - do I really need anything the mind dictates?
The mind is running away; faster than time.
Time - the substance that decays.
I do everything in the name of love!
It seems magnanimous and sincere.
In the end the truth is...

The truth is...love is...love.

Love heals.
Love sucks.
Love lies.
Love cheats.
Love scares.
Love denies.
Love takes.
Love gives.
Love hides.
Love shows.
Love disappears.
Love appears.
Love decides.
Love hates.
Love loves.
Love likes.
Love dies.
Love lives.
Love waits...

I reached the right word.

Wait. Be patient. Nothing comes easy. So take it easy. Ask for help. Believe in yourself. Be thankful.

Drink more water. It is healthy.